Most people know the idiom, “it’s just the tip of the iceberg.” No? Well, then it can be defined as being only a hint or suggestion of a much larger or more complex issue or problem. Hold that thought.
About a month ago I found out quite abruptly that I was losing my main source of income. Most of you know this and have been praying for us. Right around the time of my being officially “let go” I was contacted about interviewing for a job here in town (Pensacola, FL). The interview went extremely well and it seemed to me that everything was pointing to this being the perfect job/opportunity for me. Everything just fit right. Time went on… and on… and as most of you now know I finally heard back from them on Thursday of this week (June 28). They decided not to hire me because of my lack of a college degree. I’ll save that topic for another blog and another day.
So back to icebergs… what does that mean? How does that apply here? Well, this is exactly how I felt hearing this news. I thought I had been patient and exercising walking in faith during the past month. How could this not be the job? Then I got the news and it’s as if my eyes were opened up to this huge iceberg underneath the ocean that I had not previously seen. My breath was taken from me and all I could think was, “My God. How can I do this?” Even with the abundant cocktail of pharmaceuticals I’m on, depression set in pretty fast and hard. I had previously received good news and an initial project for some contract work, which I was needing to start on. Still I felt it very hard to smile or laugh or be myself. Tears were not far from the surface and it was only by stubbornness that they did not flow.
I made it through the day and managed to bury myself in hard work. After the kids were in bed I had a chance to confide in my best friend, my wife, and she comforted me and listened. Today was better and I actually finished the initial project that I was assigned by the new client. The invoice has been sent and hopefully they will prove to be faithful in making fast payments. He has already stated that he has more work for me, so I am excited to be active and bringing in some money to help with the stack of bills on my desk.
For those of you that may be concerned: we do have food, the lights are still on, the internet is still working (obviously) and we are doing fine. I’m not really sure where God is leading me on this career path, but please pray for guidance. If it is His will for me to continue to do contract work then I’m sure He will provide the clients and work.
Gavin, my five-year-old son and I were driving home from eating dinner out with the family tonight. He looked up at the sky and said, “Daddy, look at all of those birds.” I looked up and there were dozens of black birds perched up high on the power lines above the highway we were on. I am always interested in what my children find fascinating about the world around them and so I tried to engage him in some conversation about the matter.
“That’s neat.” I replied, “but I wonder how they can sit up there and not get electrocuted.”
He pondered this for a minute and then said, “Yeah, if they did then they’d all burn up and then they would be chicken.”
Our one-year-old Avery has about eight little razor sharp teeth now and guess what she has learned to do with them? Oh yes! She can bite things… yay! Isn’t that fun? Not for daddy, it’s not. Avery likes to bang her on my shoulder and nuzzle into my neck to put herself to sleep. We’re working away from that now, but that’s a whole different story. Well, recently I’ve noticed a sharp searing sensation in my shoulder as she’s been doing this. Then she lifts up her head with my shirt clenched in between her little teeth and a wry little smile crossing her face, “Look what I can do, Daddy.” Oh yes, that’s cute baby. Just let Daddy get some gauze to stop the bleeding from my carotid artery.
That’s all well and good and I actually think it is a bit cute. Painful… but cute. The bad part is, I think now she has started to do it out of frustration as well which is not so good. The other day I was playing the keyboard and she wanted me to pay attention to her. I was really into what I was playing, so to get my attention she bit me right on the thigh. Ouch! She’s also started scratching out of anger.
This is parenting. Children find new and innovative ways to get their way, but then we as parents must show them the way. The way being our way. The hard part is finding the proper way in which to do that, which can be different for each child and can be different in each situation. So many times I really feel like a terrible failure as a father and as a parent because I just react out of emotion instead of responding out of love and understanding. My wife is much more patient in this area and she keeps me in balance.
As an aside to dads: Whenever you do overreact out of anger and emotion to your children, don’t be afraid to apologize to them. That’s right! Let them know that you screwed up and that you know it. They need to know that you make mistakes too and that you are aware of it. I believe that they will have more respect for you in the end because you are level with them and that you let truth reign in your household.
Ok, back to biting. What shall we do? I have no idea really. All children do it. All of ours did. We just corrected it as we saw fit during that time and tried to stay on top of it. Eventually they stopped. Not good enough? Ok, here are some links to some resources on biting.
So are these articles any good, Jonathan? I have no idea. I just Googled them. You could do the same thing yourself! I may go back and read some of them later, but for now I have to go treat my wounds so I don’t develop an infection. 🙂
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Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 [NIV]
Be joyful always… FAIL. Pray continually… FAIL. Give thanks in all circumstances… FAIL. Hmmm. I’m not doing too good.
I am still for the most part unemployed and thought I would give a blog post update. Many have asked about the situation and are very concerned with how we are making it. I am in fact not completely without income. I have a part-time job doing some hourly work for a company in Orlando, FL. It’s all computer programming stuff that I do remotely and have been doing for the past seven years for them. It’s only between five and ten hours a week, but is more than nothing. I also have a few other small opportunities that have come up to do some web development jobs for people which I am actively pursuing. These are certainly not full-time income replacement vehicles but are certainly sent of God to help during our wait.
Speaking of the wait… it seems that God wants me to learn patience or something. The company here in town mentioned the 20th as the day they would be making a decision on, so hopefully I will be hearing something from them this week. I won’t get my hopes up too much for Wednesday, but perhaps by Friday I’ll hear something. I also had a lead in Fort Walton Beach but have not heard anything from that end.
Actually all of my leads have fell eerily silent. It’s kind of strange. I was talking to some good friends and I jokingly said that it was the calm before the storm and that God was about to open the floodgates of blessings! Perhaps… who knows but God. All I can do is pray and wait… and continue to send out a flood of resumes.
Thank you to all who have and still continue to pray for us. God bless you!
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